What a Day!

Well, it is safe to say that I had a very interesting Monday. Came in to find my friend Liz's room completely covered in sticky notes. (she was pranked by a couple of fifth grade girls. They have been going back and forth doing funny pranks on each other...it's been quite entertaining). As I was about to unlock my classroom door, she told me to come check out the fun. Oh boy was it ever! As I was admiring the handy work of these two girls (that happen to be in my class..), I turned around with my clearly oversized teacher bag and knocked over her coffee...every drop. Poor Liz...she has to have her coffee! I tried to find her some or have someone pick it up, but no such luck. I then went off to get my room set up for a 7am parent meeting. That went fine and ending fairly quickly. One of my boys came in the classroom like a bull in a China shop and knocked over one of my lamps (I don't use the big overhead seizure inducing lights). Glass. Everywhere.


The rest of the day followed about the same. Lots of drama with the kids. We all ended the day talking about what a weird day it had been and hoping tomorrow turns out a little better.


And then there is the fact that I feel like eVeRyOnE around me is pregnant. I just keep waiting for the next announcement. If you are one of those people, please don't worry. I deal with this quite well and enjoy hearing about your pregnancies...I truly do! It's not that I get discouraged, it just brings up the fact that I am not and having issues getting there. No biggie.


On a very positive note today, I am feeling quite hopeful about getting pregnant and staying pregnant. I have always been hopeful, but it just feels so different...and quite close. I mean who knows, it could be years, but for some reason I feel like God is preparing me for something. And I like it. I keep thinking about how I will feel if I get pregnant sooner vs. later and things progress well. I can honestly say as someone who has had quite the tough road with staying pregnant, there will not come a day in my entire pregnancy that I feel "safe." I will always wonder if my baby's heart is beating, analyzing every cramp and pull, and freaking out the minute a symptom slips away. It is just the life of someone that has dealt with infertility.


Regardless where God is leading Nick and I on this path, we are thankful for what we have been through. Trials bring you closer to God. Trials are good. Yes, I said it...trials. are. good.

Thank you Lord for being my Rock. Thank you for the hope that you put in my heart and that I can still praise you in this storm. Even though I may deal with those feelings when pregnancy does happen again, I am thankful that I can turn to you for my every need. Without You I am nothing. Without a baby in my arms I am Yours and will love You still.