Thursday, March 29, 2012

10 Weeks

Well I was just as nervous today as I was for my first ultrasound!!

We got there right at 2 and had to wait about 20 minutes to be called back. I had to pee in a cup, check my weight, and my blood pressure. My blood pressure was a little low as usual and I had lost almost 10 pounds since the last visit...


I guess not eating much and feeling yucky will do that to ya, huh?

Next we had to wait a million years for the dreaded pap smear. That was terrible as usual. My doctor asked how I was feeling or if I had any questions and my first one was, "When is my ultrasound??". He just laughed and said that he knew I was going to ask that and normally they do not do one at this appointment...


He said it was no problem, but I might have to wait a little while and we both agreed that would be fine.

 We waiting a bit for my bloodwork and after that it felt like an eternity for the ultrasound. When we were finally called back (probably an hour after my bloodwork), the ultrasound tech asked if everything was ok, as she "just saw me the other day". We were like...huh? It's been four weeks! She called the doc and he just said it was because we requested it and no other reason. Weird.

The ultrasound was quick and went very well! We are measuring exactly 10 weeks and the heartbeat was nice and strong at 178!! At the last ultrasound the heartbeat was 138...what a difference!

There's our little one at 10 weeks! Keep growing baby!

I can honestly say we are feeling pretty blessed right now! God is SO good to us and always has been, even in the tough times.Thank you Lord!

Thursday, March 22, 2012

A Week From Today

A week from today I get a peak at the babe to hopefully see he or she growing like a weed!

A week from today I will be a nervous wreck driving my husband nuts as we make our way to the appointment.

A week from today I pray that babe will be right on track with a nice strong heartbeat.

A week from today I pray that my nerves are calmed when we see that wiggly baby on the ultrasound.

But what if we don't?

If we don't, God is still sovereign and very much in control.

I will praise Him anyway.

You may think I'm nuts to already be nervous about an appointment a week away, but the truth is I was nervous when I stepped out of my last appointment knowing we would be back in 3 weeks to check on the progress.

Oh, the life of someone with multiple pregnancy loss. My. brain. never. stops.

God I pray for my fears and know that you hold this pregnancy in the palm of Your hands. How comforting to know You are in charge and not I!

I am strong. All because of You. I stand in awe, of every mountain that You move. For I am changed, yesterday is gone. I am safe from this moment on. And there's no fear when the night comes round'. I'm in better hands now.

Pray for us!

(lyrics by Natalie Grant - In Better Hands Now)

Saturday, March 17, 2012

8 1/2 Weeks

I've been a terrible blogger lately! I will blame it on the nagging nausea and exhaustion I feel after a long day of teaching. I cannot keep my eyes open! Working out has gone on hold for a couple of weeks so I can just function and sleep a little in the afternoons. It's just necessary right now!

I am still dealing with the same symptoms and learning to deal with the nausea. It isn't constant, and the busier I am, the more I can forget about it. The afternoons are the hardest, but I have learned to eat a snack and then snooze it off for a bit.

I can deal with the symptoms all day long. What I struggle most with is the fact that I can't have an ultrasound everyday to check on this little one (-; It is just hard for me to think that everything is happening as it should, ya know? I am trying though. It would be a lot easier if I could just hire my own personal ultrasound tech to live here and check up on the babe every day (-:

So many things to be thankful for that is for sure! I just pray that my mind is calmed and I am able to feel peace about this pregnancy until my next ultrasound! (March 29)

Thank you Lord for your many blessings! Thank you for the wonderful people in my life that have wrapped me in prayer for SO long. What a journey it is!

Tuesday, March 6, 2012

First Ultrasound (-:

So today I was a hot mess. All day long. Not to mention I had to teach four one hour rotations back to back for writing boot camp and it is so exhausting! As it was getting closer, my nerves were working me over for sure. All I could think about was what has happened in the past. I mean it is all I know! I am not used to good news, it just doesn't seem to be for me!

I probably drove Nick crazy as we got closer to the hospital and even more so during our 45 minute wait to see the ultrasound tech. As the ultrasound started I pretty much held my breath. She told me to relax and before I knew it, I heard a heartbeat and saw our baby right where it was supposed to be! What a relief!

Praise God! We are thrilled! Our doctor was super excited and very impressed with the heartbeat (138) and ultrasound. I am measuring right at 7 weeks which is what I thought. I am not going off of my period date because I ovulated WAY late in my cycle.

Due date is October 25th!

I go back at the end of the month for all the bloodwork and another ultrasound. I can rest a little easier...but not much easier (-;

Thank you Lord for Your many blessings and thank you friends for your continued love, prayers, and support. You are the best!

Monday, March 5, 2012

Tomorrow is the BIG day!

I can't believe March 6th is here (tomorrow).

Tomorrow I have an ultrasound to hopefully show a little blueberry (size of the baby right now) growing and a heart beating.

What if it doesn't?

I am pretty scared to say the least.

Please pray that no matter what shows up on the ultrasound, that we remember God is in complete control.

We are hopeful, but we havc been here before and of course know what can happen.

Tomorrow I will be 7 weeks and 3 days. We are praying to see growth past seven weeks. That has never happened with us before.

Thank you for your thoughts and prayers. They are certainly not taken for granted.